I seriously got no idea what i am up to now. I've becoming more and more, not to myself. Seriously. I'm confused, in total confusion. I look so lost and i hate the feeling when i've got no one to turn to. The feeling just sucks, so much. I don't feel the use of having here, still here. Family has always been my first ever priority and always will be.

I then realized everyone in my whole family means so much to me. Even though dad is selling this house, my aunties are still willing to open a big hand and welcome us to stay at their home. Woodlands may seems far from them but my heart, will always be with you. Furthermore, on the other hand, my uncle can't wait for us to move in. He even bought a new air-conditioner and wardrobe.

I've got mixed feelings now. Sorry if you think i've changed. I'm really trying my best to be who i am, really. I miss mum, as well as dad :(

If the eyes is the window of the soul, then the voice would be the key that unlocks many doors.

Mutual trust is all i need.

Life has been like a roller coaster. I wouldn't want karma to happen the way it happened before. I wouldn't want to repeat the same mistakes i've made before. It's a new start, but things had been like haywire lately. I enjoyed making a circle of friends, the bad ones as well as the good ones. The bad ones can be very very bad with a bad influence or backgrounds.

But that doesn't matter much. As long as i don't go overboard, everything is fine. I wouldn't want any close connections, really. Some peoples are just too selfish enough. But some, i am so glad they respected it. I seriously don't like the way i am in, now. I want to make a difference. Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will come after you.

Despite being told that i'll be moving out in the middle of March and April, i didn't even seems to bother much. No packing things or clothes being done, not yet. I'm so sad to even do that. This house holds a lot of memories, so much. Anyways, keep tagging readers :)

A lot of things happened. My uncle recently passed away which was a shock news. He looked rather sick the last time i visited him and now, he left. The procedure really reminds me of my mum. I miss her so much like how i miss my uncle. I have a sleepless night on the first day. We had some praying and doa selamat without failed till it's on the seventh day.

School has been very exciting lately. I enjoyed myself, every single day. I've been getting real close with the classmates and that's a good start. Hopefully, this stays or grow stronger. But some are just a pain in an ass. I'm sorry i really have to use that words. I won't want any conflicts.

Guys are just too ego. I hate the fact that you having those negative thoughts. I've gone through that and i don't wish to go through that, again. I'm tired of fighting or maybe, going into a relationship again. No point of me answering your questions when you don't even trust me. Besides that, i hate it when some treat me like we're together when we're actually not. Though you might be playing, i don't think it's a game. It's irritating.

Relationship with daddy hasn't been better. It's confirm, maybe that i'll probably be staying at Woodlands with grandma :( It's good and a bad thing. I'm not ready to move out. I love Tampines, so much.

Now, get what i mean when i said i was very busy with schoolwork? Yes, i've got lesson early in the morning and ends so late about 5 or 6 in the evening. And every time when i reached home, i gets so lazy to even switch on my laptop. But one thing for sure that makes me to do so is Cafe World, of course. It's been two days that i didn't even bother to check my Cafe World and now, guess what it's burned.

I actually wasted it though. But nevertheless, i am really trying to catch up with both my sisters. Let's talk about last weekend. I've been busy with band practices, yes. Both saturdays and sundays. Tiring yet fun :) I will be playing with the main band as well, so yeah. I simply can't wait for concert now. I headed City Hall with Arshard and had our dinner there. Speechless, one thing for sure it's fantabulous.

Granddad got warded into the hospital last Saturday and my uncle got warded into the same hospital but different ward last Sunday. Dad informed us to get ready by May and we seriously gotta move out to Woodlands. I hate it when this happened. I hope i won't be on hiatus. Keep tagging people :)

That's Cine ^.^

They are the best in everything that they can be. I enjoyed myself being in this wonderful class, FH1001D not forgetting to the best-est teacher ever Mr Tan :) I somehow blamed myself not being able to make it to Secondary Five but i didn't regret going into ITE. Though i realised that we did had a certain groups of malay and chinese. I hasn't been sleeping in class lately. I just hope this stays strong.

Schedule was tight and i mean it, very tight. I sometimes had lessons up till 6 in the afternoon and as early as 8 in the morning. The journey to school takes about one hour. On weekend, i'll be very busy with band practices. Concert is coming up real soon, less than four months. And guess what, it's at Raffles Hotel :) Make it worthwhile because it's going to be the last Bedok Town Military Band concert.

I've been missing quite a number of friends lately. Arshard was absent from school for two whole days. It felt so different while i'm sitting with his friends when he, himself is not there. It felt like i'm some kind of stranger towards them. I'm glad we're getting so close with each other. I've made a lot of friends in school :) Thank my friendly-ness.